I find myself unhappy a lot, sometimes I just dream all day about things I want to change and realize I want to change everything.
I was happy about two years ago and I mean happy everyday not just once in a while like it is now. I enjoyed even the bad days. I enjoyed the world around me and appreciated it.
I was alone then, I had nothing, and I lived alone.
Some people think that you have to get married have kids, and do all that stuff to be happy. I really don’t agree and knowing what I know now wouldn’t do it again.
Don’t get me wrong my boys I love, it is the adults I could do without.
I would do anything for these kids, I just wish there was away to have them without the fathers or anyone else around to make it difficult.
I wish I was better, a better mother, provider, and person so I could give back more to these kids and not need the other adults….
