I use this as my Bitch page when I should be using this to share my joy not my sorrow. However it seems when we experience our joy we are to busy to stop and tell the world. Well,, at least too busy to write about it.
My life is easy and boring. I love my two boys and enjoy everyday with them a little more.
I struggle for understanding about others and the ability to trust in others.
My life lesson in a way is my favorite quote.
It’s a transformative experience to simply pause instead of immediately filling up space. By waiting, we begin to connect with fundamental restlessness as well as fundamental spaciousness.
By Pema Chödrön
I guess in translation this means WAIT FOR IT!
I am an anxious person and obsess over the details in my life. Who is to say I am any different from others maybe we are all the same. I am the one living in this moment here alone yet with so many around me.
Today I am anxious about my older son again. His father fills his head with lies and uses his anger against with me to influence my sons opinion of me. To me this is wrong and there is nothing I can do but hope he will see his own truth. Teenagers change and can turn on you then turn back. I feel sad for the fact my son suffers from this behavior not me. No matter how I try I can not let go of the worry. But then again what mother can.
SO all I can do is wait …. and maybe learn to obsess over the joy not the pain
